Monthly Archives: August 2013

Can’t love Jesus? Try this


The Word became flesh and blood,
and moved into the neighborhood.
We saw the glory with our own eyes,
the one-of-a-kind glory,
like Father, like Son,
Generous inside and out,
true from start to finish.

John 1:14,  The Message

A while back I was forced to pray; ‘Teach me how to love you Jesus‘.

For reasons I can’t explain I felt like I loved God but didn’t particularly love Jesus- not that I hated Him but it was easier for me to love God the father as my creator, and the one who made the skies and the elements- which I could see. Jesus the son, I associated with hating sin and perhaps never felt comfortable with the fact that He had to pay for my sins through His own suffering and death. Why would anyone do that and not be angry when I fall right back into sin? I clean up after my boys’ mess and get mad when they go right back and mess things up again- and don’t clean up after themselves. Especially since they have been reminded several times that I am in actual fact mum, and not servant.

So I couldn’t quite fathom people who declared undying love to Jesus, or would write songs citing Jesus as the ‘lover of their soul’, still I joined them in their heavenly chorus but it wasn’t from my heart. One day I admitted to the Lord that I had this difficulty and prayed; ”Teach me how to love you Lord’‘. I forgot about that prayer and had no idea that years later my thirst for the word of God had anything to do with it. I began writing this blog because I started to receive hidden meaning and explanation behind the scriptures. Sometimes I would read one verse and a wealth of revelation would literally pour forth from that single verse. Before long I started to hide in His word during trials and I was safe and sound. Put it this way, I was in love with the word, and it was first-hand love. Not revelations from a preacher or a book, but straight from God and I couldn’t seem to get enough of it·

A couple of weeks ago I was reminded of this scripture; ‘and the word was made flesh and dwelt amongst us’ John 1:14. I have been meditating on it and today, I realised- I love Jesus!! Jesus is the word of God (which I unequivocally love) in the form of flesh! If you love God’s word, you love Jesus, He is the word!

God answered my prayer; He taught me how to love Him by teaching me to love His word. Struggling to truly love God? Start to read the word. Read it as though you believe every word in it is true, even though your circumstances tell you the opposite and before long, that living word would give life to your mind and spirit, and would release love for our saviour in your heart.

Hope this blessed you!

John 1:14: So the word became human, and made his home among us.